Very short blog, I am thanking everyone because my drawing got featured for the first time!

I wasn't thinking I can get far with my art here since I felt like I never fit the mold but I was wrong, I am a piece of clay after all and I will definitely fit in anywhere warm and welcoming!

A special bonus: My featured drawing [The war still rages within] despite its a tribute to Yoji shinkawa and metal gear rising revengeance i have dedicated it to myself ever since I first finally started to embrace my flaws and abnormality i have and let it control the vision of my artwork despite the mess, soulless and lack of organization. It has made me feel much better and more in control of myself, Thank you for the support and may there be more love along the way!

So, I recently have been hearing about metal gear from that invisible song trend, No it's not my first time hearing about metal gear, I have always seen solid snake, raiden, jetstream sam and armstrong in memes as well as OSTs WAY BACK IN 2016 (First access to the english speaking world) and I have not paid much interest in it other than music until now. I am a baby gamer and I was used to the combat in gacha games like genshin, honkai impact 3rd and even Wuthering waves and I never realized how much I felt glazed in them to realize i'm TRASH at actual action hack and slash games, not a single pretty girl or spamming right click for dodge (thats just me mentioning WUWA dodging) is going to help me beat blade wolf so I chose my fate and played easy mode to get used to the controllers and perhaps... learn to parry maybe? I've been too much of a perfectionist in my EASY run, I've forced myself to try a no hit run or a S rank combat but it's stupid, why should I try something that probably won't matter but waste time? I did it anyways because I wanted to (stupid decision)

I will talk about boss fights.

Blade wolf: bastard and a ugly one at that, ever since I saw the before and after I was shocked because I didn't notice.

Mistral: Genuinely fun, kind of painful though.

Monsoon: SO MUCH FUN OH MY GOD, PARRYING AGAINST HIM IS ALSO SO MUCH FUN, GOOD SONG.

Sundowner: Same as blade wolf, he looks like my classmate which is even worse.

Sam: Genuinely heartbreaking he's dead, I know i shouldn't like villains but God, I love him so much it just breaks me.

armstrong: Bastard, it was only fun at the end.

Thoughts about raiden: I've gotten to know him a bit from last games and honestly seeing him rebuild his life despite the issues being a cyborg and his life as a child soldier makes me proud and melancholic at least... seeing him embrace his past feels weird due to how depressing raiden was in MGS2 and MGS4 it makes my heart drop. I saw a reflection of myself in his story despite we almost have nothing in common.

My thoughts: Good time, Short story and a hook to a sequel that leaves us in a cliffhanger, I hope platinum and Konami recognizes the sudden popularity of metal gear rising and attempts to capitalize on it again instead of leaving it in the shadows unmentioned because it didnt go the way platinum initially wanted. i won't care where it takes place past future or present in his timeline, I want to play him again and see him 4k. if nothings heard... I'll just write my own sequel and see where it could lead me, not uploading though... I would be ashamed to write something so imperfect.

Thanks for tuning in.

So hey everyone who takes interest of me, I've recently been gifted a brand new phone that comes with a stylus and my art process has gotten so much fun and motivating, I've been sharing it with my family and friends and im thinking about sharing it here soon, I hope everyone's ready for a bomb of art.

(First drawing of a redesigned Nayaka, KP is my name signature)

Plans:

Nedakova: Projection

Kislyakova splash art

redesigning Hasumi, Nayaka and Rensho

Introducing Nizhoni, a member of Asteroskonis.

Jane Dixon x Antikleia animation.

I don't promise full completion but im trying my best

Love yall.

ima be honest here ive always hated blender in my roblox game dev wannabe days, wishing to create games and put my vision to life but fail as i have to learn modelling to achieve it all. Blender is my enemy, my opp, the person i would never wanna get along with and never would... there is no redemption arc between us

until something struck my mind, i should make shitty anime hairs for a fucking EA game, i am EA's biggest OPP i can't be playing their silly games. but my silliness took possesion i am sorry rebecca

so i quickly grabbed a tutorial and here's my first hair model of my oc antikleia

i took a model from the studio and drew over her face cuz i didn't like how the model looks like shes default girl from fortnite. i think this first hair is decent but i fucked it up inside out and cant redo, it was a hard start for me since im using points but everything starts looking shit AF from the roots moving everywhere they want

2ND ARC: OLD BLENDER

old blender is actually the biggest opp, i would never wanna see them again but the thing is i know all the fundamentals to the new blender and found it decently easily but its still hard, i hate how most tutorials use outdated programs but if its what the studio and tutorial is compatible with then so be it.

I've made 2 retries of the hair because i accidentally deleted one that looks nice but the new one is surprisingly good and improved since i've learnt my mistakes and used them to my advantage to try and better myself. this is definitely the best i could do as of now

despite the fact its not all good looking and amazing for a beginner like me starting blender for the 5th time i think it's nicely made and that's all it matters, im only making hair as a way to include my ocs in and to try out something new that'll help me feel like i've done something actually meaningful and artistic as well, look into the bright side of things and be you, do your thing, love your hobby even if you kinda a freak. ima let yall know when i finish mkay

I still beef with EA and blender.

I am gonna be straight to the point, i don't use discord anymore i just don't like the areas im in and that is the word.

Next up: i am going to be studying bulgarian extra hard for graduation very very VERY soon

Return back: if i were to return to discord i would just prefer i start on a clean slate but in a business matter, i wanna work as a illustrator once i start university, gonna need to get my money up for food, clothes, cosmetics and the rent stuff.

experimentals: trying out sims4 hair modding, ive seen so much sims4 content growing up and ive been wanting to put my ocs into this stuff, i think it'll be interesting to see how they'll live together but i want to be 100% ACCURATE as possible by making hairs on blender, downloading mods and stuff i just need to have everything i need for my gameplay, im very confused about modding but i'll go for it